6:20 AM Woke after 5.5 hours of sleep with horrible clarity. I'M NOT HAPPY. Furthermore, there's a tape loop in my head of ___, ___, ___, and ___ (every single person in the past week who has been even a little unfriendly). And worst of all ... I care! Going to finish this free-writing, meditate for 20 minutes and go BACK TO BED.
10:28 AM Just woke from this dream:
I was in a hotel lobby in Canada or Italy, exhausted and frustrated with trying to promote The Louise Log. Sitting there, staring straight ahead, I don't know what to do anymore. A woman walked in and came over, 50-something, slightly overweight and wearing a cotton shirtwaist with a belt. Out of the blue she started talking to me, asking what I do.
(30 seconds later)
Mrs. Shirtwaist is on a lobby computer watching The Louise Log, laughing out loud and drawing a crowd. (P.S. She also subscribed to the mailing list.)
Could it really be that the problem is I'm standing in my own light? Unwilling to let go?