Go Big or Go Bust: Day 16 (on career goals and insatiable hunger)

In response to yesterday's video rant while shovelling the sidewalk, I received the most heart-warming, wonderful response that a person putting work online could hope for:  "I care!  I've been reading them!"

Of course I shreiked and practically burst into tears. 

But within the hour, I had a more measured response.  It begins with:  "Yeah, but--"   and it flicked a light on in my head. 

I'm having to look squarely at the facts and realize that I'm dealing with something bigger here than social media metrics or even career goals.   I have issues.  

This building, with a thirty foot (?) long sculpture of a monster iguana poised jauntily on its roof, open jaws screaming at the sky, used to stand at the corner of 13th Street and 5th Avenue in New York City.  I would nod whenever I passed it, and without irony, because at the molecular level, I'm pretty sure that I am this.